Todd was commissioned by composer Jake Runestad to write a text for Cal State Long Beach choral conductor Jonathan Talberg on the loss of his fiancé Germán. "And So I Go On" is an a cappella song of love and grief, written for divided choir. Half the choir takes the voice of the living, and half takes the voice of the departed. The result is a dialogue of mourning and loss, hope and healing. The audience is offered the opportunity to understand death from two disparate and yet mutually supportive perspectives. Available for SATB from JR Music.
"And So I Go On" was featured on the Grammy-nominated Conspirare album The Hope of Loving in 2019.
Todd and Jake perfectly encapsulated my experience of loss after Germán’s passing.
From deep grief, to tragic rage, to my first glimmers of hope,
"And So I Go On" is a deeply moving tribute to the man I loved.
It is so much more than I had hoped it would be.
— Jonathan Talberg, conductor, CSU Bob Cole Conservatory Choir
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This text began as an adaptation of two poems by Pablo Neruda. The adaptations became looser and looser until there was nothing left of the originals. There's something poetic in the fact that this work emerged from two to become one. I'm grateful to Jonathan Talberg for bringing this commission to Jake and me, beginning what promises to be a lifelong friendship.